When I started writing this blog over the summer it was my goal to never miss a day. And so far, I have been good about keeping up my promise to do that. But every so often life throws you a surprise that is so unexpected and shocking, it seems like things will never be the same again, and you have to reprioritize your responsibilities.
Unfortunately on Monday I found out that over the weekend I lost a person who meant more to me than I think even I knew at the time. One day she was here and the next day she was gone...just like that. I try not to make this space too much about me, but I have to let you all know that right now I am going to need to take a bit of a break from writing this blog. I hope to be back on Monday, but it could take a little longer.
In times like this I like to search for a quote or a passage to help describe how I am feeling more eloquently than I could on my own, but unfortunately right now, there are no words.
For those of you who knew her, Natasha was my mentor, my friend, my aunt, my sister, and my mom. We fought like crazy, but we always laughed more, and we always made up. I've spent the last 7 years with her by my side, and I know that going forward things will never quite be the same. She had the ability to make people do things they never dreamed they could do, or make a situation that wasn't funny, completely hysterical. She took such delight in making people laugh, and connecting people, and she could do things for you that you didn't even know you wanted. I still laugh and think about when she insisted on taking a video at my wedding, and I'm on the camera saying, "Natasha...I told you I didn't want a video!" But of course now, I am so thankful for that video.
I also have learned an important lesson from all of this that I had never experienced before...tell people how you really feel, and everything they mean to you today, because you just don't know what tomorrow will bring. I hope in some way I have told Natasha what she meant to me in this space today, and that she is at peace, having a ball, and laughing like crazy now.
I'll be back soon. Thank you for your support.
XO, Jenn
Unfortunately on Monday I found out that over the weekend I lost a person who meant more to me than I think even I knew at the time. One day she was here and the next day she was gone...just like that. I try not to make this space too much about me, but I have to let you all know that right now I am going to need to take a bit of a break from writing this blog. I hope to be back on Monday, but it could take a little longer.
In times like this I like to search for a quote or a passage to help describe how I am feeling more eloquently than I could on my own, but unfortunately right now, there are no words.
For those of you who knew her, Natasha was my mentor, my friend, my aunt, my sister, and my mom. We fought like crazy, but we always laughed more, and we always made up. I've spent the last 7 years with her by my side, and I know that going forward things will never quite be the same. She had the ability to make people do things they never dreamed they could do, or make a situation that wasn't funny, completely hysterical. She took such delight in making people laugh, and connecting people, and she could do things for you that you didn't even know you wanted. I still laugh and think about when she insisted on taking a video at my wedding, and I'm on the camera saying, "Natasha...I told you I didn't want a video!" But of course now, I am so thankful for that video.
I also have learned an important lesson from all of this that I had never experienced before...tell people how you really feel, and everything they mean to you today, because you just don't know what tomorrow will bring. I hope in some way I have told Natasha what she meant to me in this space today, and that she is at peace, having a ball, and laughing like crazy now.
I'll be back soon. Thank you for your support.
XO, Jenn
